Glendaliz 2010

“By my 45th birthday I intend to be happily married to the man of my dreams”. Yup I said it at the time that I said it I was 40, four years ago. I really believed that I would be married by 45 I mean how hard can it be to find a man of my liking that is compatible with me that would want to build a life with me..a beautiful, strong, loving woman.
In 11 months I will celebrate my 45th birthday and I am still single. Should I move the date to maybe 47? or should I let 45 pass without a care because after all what I really desire is a healthy fulfilling relationship. I don't have to be married by 45 or even 47, but I do crave that special male/ female romantic relationship. I refuse to lose myself in the search of a mate to become a desperate woman willing to settle for spare moments, useless orgasms, and the fake company of Representatives. Been there done that, It did not bring me closer to my mate but it did take me to the edge of insanity which by the way is not fun at all.
Don't get me wrong I enjoy dating but it's a numbers game. The more men I get to know or date the higher my chances of meeting someone suited for me.
I've dated really great guys, and some not so great but the really great guys were great but not for me. I've dated men that said they were ready for a committed relationship, but did not even know what that looked like. A few men wanted to marry me after the first date, can we say restraining order? I've dated serial daters, and I even dated a man that wanted to make me wife number 4, yeah right!. With all this dating I was doing I still have not come close to finding my life partner. Am I discouraged.....No. Am I hopeful......of course! Am I determined...Absolutely !! I'm determined to keep it moving, keep it sexy, keep evolving and keep it fun.
So this year 2010 I'm going to share some of my experiences with you. I'm open to feed back so feel free to comment or ask questions if I'm not clear. I'll share my dating experiences or lack of. What I'm doing to expose myself to more prospects. I'll share my thoughts when I'm up at 3am writing in my journal, and basically share me being who I am.
Sometimes I'll say something that will be funny, freaky, serious, sad , silly or thoughtful but please do not be offended these are my thoughts. I will always be me of that you can be sure, so here goes a year in the life, experiences to learn from , welcome to Glendaliz 2010. CHRONICLES.